It's been forever






It really does feel forever, to me at least, since I posted to this blog last. I guess I am just dealing with some major artist block. I have been looking over past pictures, trying to dredge even an ounce of creative inspiration out of something and it's just been.. meh.. nothing to really write home about. 
 
I've been thinking, maybe I need to restart my inspiration series, for myself mostly!
Today is just a short blurb, I kinda like how an image turned out that I edited. I was shooting for a bright springy picture and ended up kinda dark.. I always end up kinda dark.. why is that??

Losing the past

I have such a love hate relationship with Facebook.
I love it, because at 45 it has brought me back in touch with friends from my childhood.
I hate it, because at 45 it has brought me back in touch with friends from my childhood.

You see what I did there? :) Same amount of characters.. just change 4 little letters and it means something totally different.
Now to clarify, I don't hate the people from my childhood.

More to the point. Facebook has brought about knowledge of my mortality. A few years ago, this would have tossed me into a downward spiral of depression. Watching the deaths, aging, horrible accidents and problems that happen to people that were my whole world growing up. All from a distance, unable to change their situations, or help. Well, other then the most important help that is. Sharing Christ with them. I just wish that I knew if I had shared Him enough with everyone.

If not for knowing Christ, I can't imagine how I would handle situations like the one that happened recently. A friend, actually an ex boyfriend of mine, was just killed. At first it was overwhelming, I fell back to the old thought process. He was such a sweet person, how could this have happened, we just talked not long ago, even after 20 some years. We had stayed friends... tears were shed, my husband held and comforted me. Then the Lord wrapped his arms around me and I realized that Del was with Christ and that it was OK, that Del was OK.

I am glad that we stayed friends, that there was closure to our relationship. That we still had a friendship. You will be missed Del.

Le’Roy “DEL” Burns
Passed away due to a tragic accident on April 09, 2012 at Loyola Hospital at 52 years of age. He was a lifelong resident of Romeoville, IL; He was preceded in death by his parents Charlie G. Burns and Betty (Salter) his beloved grandmother Lucille Salter. He is survived by his brother James R. Burns, sister in law Leslie, and his three nephews MARINE LCPL Christopher J. Burns, MARINE LCPL Kevin J. Burns (Taylor), and Eric Burns. Their love for him was that of a second father, he was always more than an Uncle. His beloved dog Rowdy and fat cat Tiger. His Uncle Tip Burns, cousins Sam Burns (Janice), Jeff Burns (Debbie), Justin, David, Ron, (Ann), Ron, Jessica, and Curtis Keith. His lists of best friends are Don, Heather, Gina, Jerry, George, Jenny, Ron, Linda, Tim and Steve. He was loved and touched by so many I could not begin to list them all. His kind and welcome heart attracted people to him. His adventurous spirit led him to classic cars, motor cycles, snowmobiles, and the bigger the boat the better, I guess what we are saying is the more power he could get the better. He was a member and President of the Time Machines Car club. He worked for the village of Romeoville for over 35 years, during his time with the village he was always a part of the union affairs. He lived his life ever day to the fullest, made friends where ever he went. Loved to dance, camp, and just play outdoors with his many friends and family. He played football and wrestling in high school, there is not a member of the Romeoville High from 1972 to 1980 that would not know his name or speak of him in a kind way. This town, these people and hundreds of others from any car show, boat show, or any man or women on the street whether they knew him or not would like him right away. He will be missed by hundreds and forgotten by none. We love you Del and believe you will forever walk with us every day for the rest of our lives until we see you again.

Calvary Cross for SCAL - Cricut

I have a cricut.. I <3 my cricut!

I had a friend who asked if I could create an image of the Calvary Cross for a vinyl decoration.
YES! It turned out so beautiful that I want to share it with the world :). It's also the perfect time of the year for it.

I cannot figure out how to save it as an SVG file yet, so it is in .scut2 format. It turns out beautifully on the Cricut Expression. Please feel free to convert it and share it back if you would like. Otherwise please enjoy this image :).


Going with my whole love of colors, I have a new color palette mix using Chasing Dreams free Color Palette templates. 

As always hope that this inspires a color mix for you! Or better yet, download the templates and play around and find your own color palette!
Cowgirl Love

Southwestern Palette

Lilac Love




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Fitting song

I'm sitting here listening to my Spotify playlist and this song just screams out about how my life was before Christ.
Does it sound like what your going through, or your past?



Last night got a little crazy
I dont remember, woke up spun with the pasties 
My friends say I was tweaked out, 
Passed out on a dirty couch, still in the house
It kind a scares me, I dont know
Am out of control, always waking up still in my clothes
I wrote a note that said goodbye to pain, good bye to shame
But couldnt find a way, I just cry for days
Im so depressed, soak in wet, I cant rest
These thoughts just beat me to death Im un-kept 
I thought of a song my mom used to sing in church
But its been so long I cant remember the words


Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, Im right here, with you

Every time you run


I keep sleeping in dont want to wake up
I keep hearing from the landlord pay up
Hide my face in my pillow till the sunsets
Hung over and I havent seen a pay check 
I took a job downtown at the factory
I was hired and fired with no salary 
I keep running from responsibility 
Its seems impossible, the pressure is hitting me
I know I need to man up, or sit down
Stand up and get out of this crowd
I thought of a song my mom used to sing in church
But its been so long I cant remember the words


Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, Im right here, with you


Well I know Im not ready to die, But Ive
Sure thought about the meaning of life
Cause I cant seem to find a purpose for me
Its just the choices and I fail to proceed
I got a get up, get up, get up, get up
Get up, get up, get up, get up, get up
I hear voices in my mind, ones a devil, ones Jesus
I can feel it can you help me find the pieces
Like an angel on my shoulder, you hold the
Joy of the lord raising up a soldier 
You gave me the song my mom used to sing in church
I promised not to quit and I remembered the words
I promised not to quit and I remembered the words


Every time you run, every time you hide
Every time it hurts, every time you cry
Every time you run away, every time you hide your face
And it feels so far away, Im right here, with you

Well it's official!

I am going to be a Close To My Heart consultant! I've been sitting on the idea for months now. I absolutely love love love their items. Every single one of them! And when I went to a CTMH party last week and found out that they were giving the Art Philosophy cartridge away for free this month to new sign up consultants, well.. I was sold, especially since I had just told my CTMH girl that it was going to be my next purchase!

So, in the next few days I will be building the CTMH products into the site, if anyone is wanting to purchase anything, just contact me! :)

One month later

I am just not feeling it, too much webpage designing, too much photo editing, too much ache and pain dealing with this fibro. It's all just taken a toll on me.


I broke down and started an HCG diet. Granted it's the cheapest bottle that I could find at wallyworld. But amazingly it has actually killed my appetite. Yeah, boggled my mind also. I have not had the courage to step on a scale yet though. It's only been 2 days and my pants speak in volumes. They are saying to stay away from the scale and go directly to the treadmill.


I've had these websites bouncing around in my head though and I just had to get them out. Heck I need $$ and the only way to do that is to sell some of my work! Right? Le sigh. Such a catch 22. Well.. I bid adieu. And another motivational picture!